I can look You, to do for me what I am unable to do for myself...

this is coming from my devotional book...it really spoke to me and so i would like to share it:

"Beloved, even when your thoughts are scrambled, you can indeed look to Me for help. Many people stumble out of bed in the morning and head straight for the coffee pot. Though they are not yet thinking clearly, they are conscious enough to move toward something that will help untangle their thoughts. I perform a similar function for you, when your mind stumbles in My direction. Ask Me to help you think My thoughts and see things from My perspective. I created you in My image so that you would have this amazing capacity.

As you wait in My Presence, I not only unscramble your thinking, I also unscramble your path through the day. I am sovereign over every aspect of your life, so opening up the way before you is no problem for Me..."

Thursday and Friday of last week I had days full of cultural exposure, and some experiences that really made me think, and really made me praise God. Last Thursday, I had a brief exposure to the kind of traditional worship, dealing with spirits and such. It was slightly uncomfortable, to the point of knowing something was not right, and constant communication with God was necessary. I was with Jon and his research assistant, as they interviewed people about something that occurred over 50 years ago. There was a hill where people went to see this self-proclaimed prophet for healing. What we did not know, was that there is now a different priest there, and people still go there for the same reason. We were able to just talk with this priest and he explained what he believed. It was troubling, because there is a greater truth and God is more powerful than we can even fathom. It was certainly a lot to process, and a lot to pray about.

I am spending the first part of this week back at the school, helping out with their summer camp in the morning. Yesterday afternoon I able to go back to Mama Mary's, probably for the last time. I get emotional just thinking about it, because those children and Mama Mary has touched my heart in more ways than they probably know. God is truly amazing.

I know that my time here is winding down...I am not ready to head home (even though I miss you guys so very much!). I have had trouble sleeping the past few nights, and I feel like my mind is racing...which is my that quote from my devotional was so moving. I have no idea what tomorrow holds...let alone farther off in the future. In this continual processing, I am trying to figure out my experiences, and the next steps on this crazy journey called life. Trust is a funny thing. Faith is a funny thing.

"We wait in hope for the Lord, he is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. May your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord, even as we put our hope in you" (Psalm 33:20-22).

love you all.
kirsten.